I'm Not Religous BUT...

Thinking back on Holmes piece "Go Your Own Way" and his portion on religion in his childhood years made me think of my own. I do want to start off by saying I have no dislike toward anyone who may be religious, some of my friends are very into it.
I'm not religious, but depending on who you speak to, the Wicca/Witchcraft spirituality I follow apparently is considered a religion (I do not considerate as so.) 

You may be asking "Why don't you see it as religious?" Here's your answer. 

Growing up my entire family had been heavily into Christianity and Baptism, and I used to attend church with my grandmother quite often. She literally lived (not lying) 20 feet from a church, connected to her yard. Stained glass windows and all, it used to be a hangout spot for kids, too. This was in Wallace WV, in the middle of no where between Clarksburg and Shinnston.
I had been taught to fear what was presumed to be the Devil and how this invisible, demonic being could harm you if you do wrong. Then again, who wouldn't be terrified of this?! Especially when at church stories were told about humans being pulled underground to Hell, etc. when your not even ten. How, if you become saved the Lord would put a shield around you to protect your body from this negative force that's closer to you than Heaven is. 
So, as I grew up I lost interest in attending church, stopped going really altogether and followed my own path, this just wasn't for me. I did however still believe that there had been a heaven and hell. 

However, in the last few years or so, I've begun to realize I still knew, and wanted to believe there's something that carries some sort of higher power in supernatural form that affects us, nature, etc.
Fun fact: I had always had a thing for Horror but had lowkey been terrified of specific types of things.
One thing I never had been terrified of were Witches, how apparently whoever assumes to be a witch is automatically satanic and evil. This is because of the five-pointed star, most people see it as satanic because for those who follow that religion it is used upside down (so the two bottom points are up, to represent the devils horns.) These of course, mostly are stereotypes (I could go on about this for quite a while, but I won't.) Let's just say that there is such thing as "Black Magick" and the outcomes of it are usually harmful to others, it isn't used to promote good (obviously). Although I consider myself a witch I do NOT follow this belief. I am what's considered a "White Witch" and learn about white Magick in hopes to promote good all around. Crystals are a common thing I carry, incense, candles, Altars, etc. BUT I do not considerate it a religion because (1. I don't claim to follow a specific God or figure and (2. Religions tend to have so many rules that one must follow in order to be considered accepted in it, or even society. This spiritual belief revolves around nature, the natural energies of the earth (using fire, water, moon/sun light energy (earth), and air.) It is based on how your intuition pulls you into doing what's best for you, there is no right or wrong way to conduct your beliefs, spells, whatever it may be. 

In conclusion, I've asked myself so many things in life about religion such as "How is there a God if things like this can happen to me, or to anyone that has good intention?" I've honestly asked myself so many questions about it that I could probably write a novel on the subject in the subject of Philosophy. That would be one long book. I do still believe there are negative forces in our world, I know that Black Magick is a thing (American Horror Story does great at showing how this sort of works.)
I hope everyone is doing well and that you enjoyed this post.